The Vagabond Saga

A Journey Through Life To Understand Happiness

My Body The Car October 16, 2009

My body is my car

The vehicle that the world invented

I have continually mended and dented

Entwined and possessed within— like a curse

Bound to its temporal mortality or worse

Faith encourages us not to panic

Science wants to send us to a quantum mechanic

—      Where those with extra smart-icles

See us as just potentiality and particles

Others want to call in the manufacturer’s warranty

Let “Him” with a capital “He”

Give assurance and guarantee

But “He” never writes back to our correspondence

And with waiting comes despondence

Without a CEO to be our judge

To prove some sort of what is and what was

We must rely on the observation of cause and effect

Karmic understanding to mitigate ethical aspect

In the end, regardless of what we have tried

Punishments threatened or implied

We are good and bad based solely on our own volition

Our actions determine our condition

And whatever we may admit

We are all interconnected bit to bit

And no matter how we define what the world “is”

Our goal is to realize blameless bliss

Before we all eventually croak

Our temporary flame left to residual smoke

Most that should recognize our life is short—  don’t

Even those can cognize it— won’t

So our habits we should always be testing

While moving or while resting

What a glorious endeavor!

To give up being so clever

See the universe so clear

When we brush away the clouds of fear

See the truth that everyone’s a corpse

Terminally ill by all reports

No matter how hard each doctor has tried

Eventually all of their patients have died

My body is my car

The vehicle that the world invented

But what was forgot to mention

Is that it is rented.

 

Budda Wild Monk Video July 26, 2009

 

“Taking the Pulse of Death in September” July 14, 2009

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The world
Engulfed in sanguine and ochre flame
of Septembers;
Zephyrs that swat and shake;
Until liberation gently dances
Down
into the significance of crunchy blankets
For children and
rakish dads, like Apollo
Distant and withdrawing
Relenting custody of his warmth
To a tepid and distant gaze
Fervent panting observed creates
Exhaust against the bitter bite
Of “alone”

But

as winter wipes the canvas white
Lighting up the darkest night
The silence brings new found sight
A pattern to the asynchronous tone
A rhythm beyond the endless clatter
A smoldering ember lighting the way home
Ablaze the torch, thumping the drum
Blood rushing to toe and thumb
The world is cold
Dark and full of death
So discover the brilliant joy in every breath.

 

Buddhism and the Physical Body June 5, 2009

The Buddha taught “the understanding of suffering and the ending of suffering.” The Buddha Gautama taught how to achieve true happiness—a blameless bliss and joy that has no external source and is sustainable. He understood this through the teachings of the Four Noble Truths: There is suffering; a cause of suffering, a way to end of suffering, that way is through the Noble Eightfold Path (which develops ethics/mindfulness, concentration, and wisdom).

Those who understand and accept these truths know that the cornerstone to developing ethics, concentration and wisdom is through the practice and development of mindfulness and skillfulness through meditation. The focus is certainly mental, but the physical body does play an essential role in our daily Buddhist practice and application.

If we only concentrate on the mental and spiritual aspects of the practice we miss the essential component of existence: the body.

Dr. Richard Davidson of the University of Wisconsin has studied the brains of Buddhist monks, and found their happiness unmatched. His studies concluded that a person sitting quietly for a half hour a day contemplating loving kindness and compassion will show noticeable changes within two weeks.

“Research is showing pretty convincingly,” said Dr. Sonja Lyubomirsky of University of California Riverside, “that happiness is really within us, it is not outside of us. It is in what we do, how we act and how we think.”

The search for happiness externally never creates happiness. The rises in happiness from external experience are always adapted to, whether that external happiness is only for an instant or longer-lasting. For example: The joy of a present may only last a short time before the desire for another present replaces the initial enjoyment of receiving a gift; or the increased quality of life from a new job is quickly adapted to until that new paycheck become part of the normal budget. This is called hedonic adaptation.

In the Journal of Research and Personality, a survey of 147 college alumni looked at happiness and satisfaction. These 147 college alumni stated that they achieved their goals set after college; recording the goals at graduation and 12-months later. Those alumni whose goals were material in nature reported no impact on their level of happiness. In some cases alumni reported increased stress, anger and physical illness. Meanwhile, those alumni who focused on personal growth discovered an increased self-evaluation of happiness personally and with their relationships with others.

So we can look at happiness as something that is internally driven, but what about the physical aspects of creating happiness? Beyond the physical effort of sitting to meditate, does our physical body need to follow the eightfold path?

An article published in Psychological Science states that our physical movements do create mental formations, which makes sense when we acknowledge that 80% of all communication with others is done through non-verbal communication. An arm held out signifies “stay away” and is negative, while an arm motioning in a circular fashion is often seen as “beckoning” and positive. While this is obvious communication with others, it is also conditioning for us.

Our cognitive awareness may not register, but our physical body doesn’t just communicate to the world around us but does contribute to the physical and mental states of who we are—including happiness.

The physical actions of our body not only help create the psychological conditions in our minds, but they also help directly to the cognitive and recognitive factors of our being as well.

The physical act of giving, even reluctantly, creates the psycho-physical state of liberation and euphoria. The actions within the body communicate with the mind.

According to David Meier, founder for the Center for Accelerated Learning, education and learning “is not passive storage of information but the active creation of knowledge.” Kinetic education is profoundly more effective and longer-lasting than just mental cognition.

As a Buddhist, this makes sense. Thought is just one sensory organ out of six. That is only 16.6% of all the input that our consciousness processes. When all senses are working the same goal, 100% of our consciousness is participating in the dhamma.

Think of how physical movement and effort has helped form the cognitive world view around us. We learned to count using our fingers. We learned danger from smells and touch. The nose is our most effective recognitive sensory organ.

According to a study by Art Glenberg, from Arizona State University, children who were taught to read through just the traditional mental aspects of education (e.g. repetition, phonics, etc.) fell behind those children who were taught with the added aspects of physically acting out the scenarios in the books. The entire body was able to process the information easier and with higher effectiveness.

So it is no great surprise to see that Buddhist practice would also become more effectively learned and applied when we purposefully and skillfully add in physical aspects of our beliefs. In addition, we must become aware of how our physical actions are filtering our current mind states so that we can become more mindful.

One of the greatest values of Buddhist meditation is to create distance from our physical form so that we can identify the difference between conditioned physical and mental habits and formations. This detached view offers insight into what is useful and what is not useful in application to our daily life, which we cannot get when we are “knee deep” in the moment. It is occasionally too difficult to notice all the psycho-physical aspects happening in real time.

Nevertheless, they do happen. Just as meditation can give insight with that distanced view, we can make those opportunities to change psycho-physical habits and create conditions where our responses are more positive all the time.

It is through that combination, that happiness can be achieved and sustained.

 

Infidelity aka Dishonesty in a relationship May 17, 2009

Vagabond,
How does one react to Infidelity aka Dishonesty in a relationship?

A Gut reaction is to not personalize it, as I believe it to be a reflection on the character of the person who was dishonest as well as a mirror to reflect their own insecurities.

There is a difference between the Buddhist practice of dispassion, liberation, and realization that there is no “self”; AND not making wise decisions for what is best and wise in your life.

If someone is cheating on you, you must decide not “why are they cheating?” but “what is best for me if he is?” Do you feel that this infidelity is something that creates an atmosphere that puts you at risk for your health? Is it your decision that this person’s infidelity creates a dynamic to your relationship that you are not comfortable with?

And look at yourself. Are you even considering not leaving him because you are clinging to him? Do you feel that you know the real him or the idealize idea of what you wish he was? Do you accept the impermanent nature of all things (including relationships, people and personalities)? Do you fear letting go and being alone?

If you are the person cheating, do you feel that you are creating conditions that are wholesome? Do you feel the moments of joy are worth the energy of deceit and the suffering of keeping up the lie? Do you have compassion for your partner and their feelings? Do you find that your suffering can be answered by sexual adventures?

These are only some questions to investigate. The only answers are yours and your decisions. Be with the breath, and spend time investigating your own experiences, habits and being.

Namo Buddhaya

 

Quotes by the Vagabond May 16, 2009

The world is a beach, where we create ourselves, our sandcastles, our realities. We forget that it is all just sand. We ignore that we will return the beach. Our matter will be returned and reused. Our identities evaporated into the air. Be joyful for the time we have by being mindful of this.

Embrace the impermanent nature of all things, when we engage with the world wholeheartedly. More precious is our time spent with our children when we are always aware how quickly childhood is over. Embracing impermanence, we are more willing to forgive, to embrace, to enjoy our mate in the short time we have to share.

Because life is so linked to desire, we must use that energy toward something positive. We must offer love with a sense of urgency, offer compassion with a sense of importance, joy with a sense of abundance. This is how we transform ourselves from clinging to impermanence to the giving of the moment.

Deal with the issues within ourselves in a time of stress first: find peace “within” even when it may not resolve the troubles “without.” See clearly that feelings, ideations, worries, etc. not caused by external events but ourselves. Clearing external obstacles, we remove our object troubles like mighty wind gust pushing a branch off of the road, but we have not swept away the obstacle within to move forward.

True suffering starts with the phrase “what if.” What if I had. What if I didn’t have. What if this person did this. What if … Meditate and find the bliss of being present. Learn to replace the indulgence of “what ifs” with the accepting calm of “what is.”

Happiness does not come from trying to end of suffering, but accept it. Be with suffering, embrace discontentment, be with the moment as it is. This is the foundation for blameless bliss and joyful equanimity.

Feeling is a grasping for a thought.

There is no cure to sickness. There is only an understanding how to stay off death for another day. Nothing puts a stopper in the hourglass. Nothing stops the sands slipping into the below, seeming to fall faster and faster the closer the last grain is destined to fall.

Information does not equal knowledge. Information is brick and boards. Learning is creating structure to build knowledge. If nothing has changed, then nothing is learned.

Getting is rarely as satisfying as desiring, and always followed by suffering.

Of all the passions, lust is the more powerful. We are never punished for our lust, but by it. It leads us into heedlessness, poor choices, and regret. Every moment spent in the throws of passion equals endless hours in fantasy, daydream, plotting, planning, begging and executing in preparation. How much more productive would be be without lust?

When we have anxiety, stress, emotional pain– they are experiences we invited in with open arms like a Trojan Horse. When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you.

The origin of “religion” means “to bind fast to. This is why religion never brings happiness. Religion needs faith. It binds its faith to dogma. Faith without religion is confidence. It is liberation and freedom. It is accepting the universe without delusion, greed or hate.

We can only care for what we notice. We can only notice when we have attention. We can only have attention when we open our eyes and our heart.

“There are only three distractions to happiness: aversion, wanting, ignorance. When you want, when you avoid, when you do not know for certain— we must investigate these responses. All that we want is not perfect. All that we avoid is not bad. All that we do not know is unknown to us.”

 

Wholesome Relationships May 16, 2009

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Someone wrote to me, ” i must ask, is it possible to be overly in love with your spouse? is it bad that my one true concern in life is that she is well taken care of in the afterlife? does it mean i am clinging if i say i hope that her and i can spend the afterlife together?”

We must remember that in developing loving kindness (metta) also means having unconditional acceptance. If your wife told you tomorrow that she fell in love with the mailman and her true happiness would mean that she run away with him, would your love accept that? Is your love unconditional?

All thinks arise and fall away: including love.

The process of thinking, according to Buddhism, is sense awareness, our senses, contact (a decision that something is pleasurable, unpleasurable and neutral), feeling (an opinion about what we come into contact with), craving (our attachment to that feeling), grasping (our clinging to our concepts and cravings), the arising of being (feelings, relationships, life, etc), the ending (the eventual passing of that being).

So as we develop mindfulness, we become aware of the world and our relationships to all things. As we become more mindful, we see which relationship (and types of relationships) we CHOOSE to have with the world.

When you choose to have a relationship, you must be mindful of which of your attachments are wholesome and which are unwholesome attachments.

You can have a very wholesome relationship with your wife as a householder, and still be dedicated to the practice. You can accept the engagement with love without the unwholesome attachment to it.

 

What is the purpose of alters in Buddhism? May 16, 2009

Vagaond,
What is with the use of alters in Buddhism?
The alters are not for the Buddha, but for us. As we focus on the virtues of the Buddha and the teachings, we meditate on the virtues and qualities we wish to develop within us.

Think of a Buddhist alter as a mirror to who we wish to see and become in our practice.

 

Dealing with Anger May 16, 2009

Vagabond,

This topic is anger and abandonment. I was very angry at my partner and said very hurtful things, even though I thought I had calmed down. I did not stop to monitor the tension in my neck and face, as I should.

I am going to counseling and it was mentioned there that given my background, feelings of abandonment may be seeded in me and arising during an incident. I am wondering what you think about anger and abandonment.

For me following buddhadharma, what might I read from the dharma to help me on this?

Thanks, friends in the dharma,

Susan P.

Susan,

If I may offer, you still see your feelings as a part of you. They are not. Thought is one of the six senses. Just like you cannot remove the sensation of the wind on your skin, you can not control or ignore the thoughts that arise in your head. What you can do is change how you relate to those sensations.

When you have a moment of anger, take time to investigate them. What were the triggers that brought the arising of those feelings? What were the events that created your feelings of craving, aversion or ignorance?

If you feel a breeze, do you like it or not like it? It is just the breeze. You have assigned a value to it. If you like it, you crave more. If you find it distracting or unpleasant, you create a feeling of aversion. The same is true with people and thoughts.

By investigating these emotions and what brings about your relationships to them, you will will peel back the layers like an onion. As you go deeper, you will see that many of these relationships to people and emotions are conditions like habits. As you pull back more layers you will see that these habits were created by cravigns and aversions that you had at a previous time, and each time these situations arose instead of detaching your cravings, you added more (like a pearl is created by constant adding to a pebble of sand). When you remove the layers, you will find that the final sand pebble is your own sense of ego or sense of “I” and what you value as expectations for that ego.

Eventually, we must recognize that the “I” is an illusion. We are only formed in our aggregates for a short period of time. All name and form is as well. With all things impermanent, we can see that many of our concepts are wrongly created with a sense of expectation– a sense that the world is permanent and things SHOULD work a certain way, instead of recognizing that all things are as they are and should be accepted JUST AS THEY ARE.

With this wisdom we can relate to them properly. We can assign true value to them. Relationships are not static. People are not static. The universe is not static. It is all process and constantly changing. All things arise and fade. All things unfold as they do and not as they are wished to be.

This is the seed the grows metta, loving kindness or unconditional acceptance. With metta we see the world differently. We accept and relate to the world wisely. We no longer crave, but we also no longer avert ourselves. We no longer hate or blame or cling. The tempest of emotion and suffering becomes calm like a pool on a windless day.

This is why meditation daily is so important. It gives us the tools to see the world wisely. It allows us to engage with the universe correctly. It allows us to find an inner happiness that does not come from external pleasures (which include joy as well as pain).

Meditation what you should do, because the book you should be reading and comprehending is yourself. That is where the true Buddhadarma resides.

 

The Nature of Delusion (Avijja) April 23, 2009

 

A magician pulls out a bit of rope and cuts in half. He ties the two pieces of rope together and pulls the knot taught. Then he puts a hand over the knot and incants the magic words and “voila” the rope is whole again. The audience is in awe. They know the laws of the universe makes what happen impossible, and yet it just happened. Everyone is delighted because what we know and what has happened to not match: which is true?

 

The reality is that through a series of rehearsed moves the rope only appears to be cut in the middle. It is really cut at the end of the rope, the knot is not joining two equal pieces of rope but a small bit of rope knotted around a large rope section. As the magician’s hands grasp over the rope he pulls the knot off the longer thread and “voila” the rope is whole again. When the illusion is executed perfectly, every step looks real and it challenges our perceptions.

 

Even when the audience knows how the trick is done, the mind rarely changes its perceptions. “People take reality for granted,” explained Teller from the magic team Penn & teller. “Reality seems so simple. We just open our eyes and there it is. But that doesn’t mean it is simple.”

Magic is a fraud of perception confusing and creating tension between what is and what seems to be. Our brains don’t see everything—our brains only process 40% of the information that is gathered by our senses. Our senses gather only a minute fraction of the information that in the reality in front of us. To make sense of it all, our brain creates shortcuts. We cognize constructions and rationalizations: this creates definitions of what is and what is not.

Magicians capitalize on those rules. “Every time you perform a magic trick, you’re engaging in experimental psychology,” Teller says. “If the audience asks, ‘How the hell did he do that?’ then the experiment was successful. I’ve exploited the efficiencies of your mind.”

Even when the mind is aware it is being deceived the conditioning of our reality is so strong that our intellect argues with our instinctive habits and responses. It is only possible to break through our habitual conditions of “what is” reality by investigating and reverse-engineering the rationalizations, deceptions and delusions.

The Buddha said, “ignorance is the leader in the attainment of unskillful qualities, followed by a lack of conscience and lack of concern. Immersed in ignorance, wrong view arises. In wrong view, wrong resolve arises. In wrong resolve, wrong speech arises, thus follows wrong action, wrong livelihood, wrong effort, wrong mindfulness, and wrong concentration.

As a child, my grandmother had put in a wall of mirrors in her house against one wall. Not paying attention, I walked full-force and straight into the wall. Who hasn’t walked into a glass door at least once in their life? We have all smashed our noses at some point, because our perceptions are often habituated and much of what we do in life is on cruise control. There is just too much information in our daily lives to be cognize every detail in every moment. We expect the world to react in a predictable way and are surprised when it doesn’t. “Bam!” We end up with our noses turned sideways wondering how we could have been so foolish not to see the door knob or ourselves in the mirror: details that become obvious after the fact.

The Buddha said, “From ignorance comes fabrications. From fabrications comes sense-awareness, name & form, the senses, contact, feeling (or value impressions), craving, clinging and the arising and passing all things.”

This is the dependent condition of who we are. All suffering exists because we exist. With the condition of birth, we suffer pains, discontentment, aging, sorrow, illness and death. Not just with the gross reality of our lives as a whole process, but as an infinite series of processes. From ignorance we form delusions of the way things are, we create opinions and cravings and eventually opinions and emotions about things. The arising of anger, love, sorrow, etc. all arise form their own dependent originations.

If you had asked a friend to give you a ride and they are late, what arises? Not knowing what happens we start to create the stories: he forgot, he blew me off, he is in the wrong place, he is in an accident, etc. Each story that runs through our head gives rise to different conclusions and emotions. Each is validated and fed by our own ego. And when our friend finally arrives, we still cling to stresses and frustrations created by our imaginations.

Without a proper foundation of how to recognize the arising and passing of phenomena, we continue to unmindfully live on “cruise control” in many aspects of our lives, which affect our overall ignorance of perception. We assume the door is open and do not look to see if it is a glass door and inevitably we find ourselves a painful reminder that life is not what is seems.

And even at that point of awareness, we may not be able to overcome our conditioning. Some of our paradigms and constructs of the mind are so rooted within us, that they seem integral to who we are. We know that what we see is reality, so we cannot resolve the conflict of our perception with our intellect when we see a magic trick in front of us: even when we KNOW it is an illusion.

The Buddha said, “There are three taints: the taint of sensual desire, the taint of being and the taint of ignorance. However, it is the taint of ignorance that all other taints follow.” With the cessation of ignorance, there is right view and understanding.

Ignorance is the source of the three poisons: hate, greed and delusion. Without an understanding of what is and what is not, we develop false relationships with the phenomena around us. We crave for some phenomena and reject others. With ignorance we are deluded into thinking that our conditioning created by habits and false view is true reality. However, when we understand suffering, the cause of suffering, and the practices to end suffering; we deconstruct the conditioned world we live in and start living in an unconditioned reality of wisdom and right view.

This isn’t as difficult as it seems. When the secrets of a magic trick are revealed, it is often amazing how simple they are, how blind our minds have become and how willingly gullible the universe is to its own constructed reality.

Ajahn Brahm said, “Buddhism is different than most other religions because it never asks us to make the facts match the dhamma. The dhamma must always match the truth or it is not dhamma.”

The world is a magical place, full of illusions and misdirections, rationalizations and delusions. It is through Buddhist practice that we develop the skills to exist beyond all of that.